I think my crazy job takes a toll sometimes. It's weird because there are benefits like having a lot of autonomy. If I make my deliveries on time, I"m left alone, no co-workers, no boss over my shoulder. I'm making middle class income now and getting some debts under control.
However, this comes with insane work hours and hardly any kind of regular home life. I'm out about 11 days and off every other weekend. I can work up to 70hrs a week or drive up to 11hrs a day within up to 14hr that includes misc non-driving work. After that, I get a 10 hr break which is enough time to eat, wash up, sleep, make more coffee, then drive again. For example, my last duty run from Nov. 4th through the 15th, I drove 4500 miles.
My year to date figure is 80,000 miles driven. Holy sh;t.
I'm not lonely exactly, but this comes with crushing levels of boredom and a regular nagging feeling that I'm missing out on life. I hardly even have time for something as simple as watching a movie. It's hard to have fulfilling hobbies. I like to do things that are technical or creative. I've thought about trying to write fiction, but I don't have the time; I can't write in 5 to 10 minute increments unless I want to edit total garbage. Podcasts help for entertainment or learning, but then I have no time to put whatever I learn into practice.
The job itself comes with risk and stress as well from traffic and maneuvering a giant vehicle or the threat of storms. I've been blown over once doing this. It's also very sedentary which annoys me on another level feeling over the years this could take a toll on my physical health.
I regularly feel kind of disgusted working a job like this when I have a 2 year degree as well. Or feel that I have potential to do more, but my hands are tied because I have to drive this truck all damn day.
I dunno, I just don't see many opportunities to do something else without the risk of more debt from over price training. There is a chance if I get a little more experience and license endorsements, I could apply to haul Propane and be home 3 days every week instead of every other week.
I mostly have some levity about this job for now, but I also feel like I'm getting closer to a day where I'll have to quit or at least take an extended leave.